Welcome!
This website is a resource for spiritual journeyers whose awakening process is far darker and weirder than they were expecting.
It is a ray of light for those who are traversing awakening’s underbelly — difficult emotions, trauma, strange bodily ailments, spirits, ghosts, ancestors, demons, the imaginal, the soul, energies of the earth, the elements, the dark feminine, etc.
Without any background knowledge to help contextualize these things, surprise openings to “the Below” can be difficult to understand. They are consequently often interpreted as spiritual emergencies or mental health crises rather than the blessings and opportunities that they truly can be.
The goal of this website is to validate and normalize such experiences, in order to encourage people to lean into and even embrace the precious dark wisdom that comes from Below.
About the Author
As you will read, my awakening has involved many diverse kinds of openings. I have had experiences and have gained insights into Buddhism, Advaita, Daoism, yoga, tantra, kundalini, shamanism, and frameworks from both my pagan European and indigenous Amerindian ancestors. I wove these strands together through a self-designed set of practices that include meditation, qigong, ancestral work, writing, and “just being.”
This series of posts is a journal of the awakening experiences that brought me to these realizations, and how I became “Oholomo.” I started keeping this journal shortly after the process began. These posts were first located on my Facebook page, but I have moved them here to provide a more stable permanent record. I have edited them for public reading, and have also clumped them into three different phases in order to provide some organization and coherence.
My hope is that readers might find some inspiration, clarity, solidarity, or enjoyment in reading these posts. If you’d like to talk with me more about nonduality, nonself, kundalini, the goddess, awakening more generally, or anything else, subscribe below so you can message me in the members-only chat… or come find me on Facebook.
